I don't know if you'll read this, but I've had the same feelings you have had in the past. For some reason God made it so we have to go by faith. Theres no evidence that the flood really happened. There's really no evidence that Jesus was resurrected. It's just requires faith. We grow our faith through prayer, reading of scriptures and obeying the commandments. If we don't do these things then our faith dies. Doesn't matter what denomination you are you have to nourish it. good luck